GMX has recinded her offer for shelter beginning on the day I am
released from the hospital, until 6-8 weeks afterwards. I am to be
basically homeless during my recovery period. Now, she has offered to
keep the children for that time period. X will be moving in, and I am
sure that GMX sees it as a chance for X to realize what a joy
parenthood is, and she's hoping X will want to spend more time with
the kids.

With all the stress they're putting me through, a part of me suspects
that they have at least some small hope that I may not make it, and
that X can become some sort of a mother to these children enough to
raise them. I worry quite a bit about that.

I have to find some place to stay. As a last resort, I will do my
recouperation in the shelter in Jeffersonville. I would like to find
somewhere to go, where I can take the kids with me for the 6-8 weeks
that I am not welcome here. I was counting on a little help and a lot
of moral support from them. I love them so much and I don't want to
be forced to be away from them for two months. I know it will take me
a lot longer to heal if I'm kept away from my children.

Also I have legal concerns that Shellie will try to use this 6-8 weeks
in order to get "custody" of the kids. I don't know how much this
will hurt me later on when it comes time to sign divorce papers. I am
going to ask every friend and relative I know for help, not
necessarily to "move in" with them, but for ideas of what I might do.
They've given me until Monday.

I don't know why this woman is kicking me out of her home the day I
get back from major abdominal surgery, but its her house, and I have
no choice.